The search for the soul can send our whole life crashing into darkness.. The darkness is not a punishment from a vengeful God or a karmic retribution from a past life time. When the soul gathers enough light from meditation, right action and reflection, the old reality created by the ego simply falls apart. From darkness into light and into darkness many times on the journey of the soul. This is the experience of the crashing down of the world created by the ego, a structure that simply doesn't fit into the agenda of the soul.
The ego works to create safety, familiarity and comfort. It creates shields and barriers to prevent new experiences and expansion. Soul consciousness breaks apart these structures, and other linear understandings of the rational mind.
High magic is invoked, opening us to the realm of angels, miracles and love.The logical mind of the ego cannot comprehend this.
Our spiritual intuition understands what is happening, but to the ego it feels like fear and insecurity. We feel vulnerable, as the shields and barriers that maintained our comfort zone are removed. We desire the expansive nature of the light, but not the radical change that the light brings.
When the bonds of the ego are loosened, we have to navigate through a new reality, and life can become a challenge. When we lose the familiar reference points of our old egoic reality, we can either descend into chaos, or ascend into our intuitive gifts.
By using our intuitive gifts, we can see in the darkness. We begin to perceive what is really there. When we find the answer, it resounds within us. The right answer usually feels quiet and solid. It's best to keep the answer quietly within while taking simple steps toward it. Belief and faith are two good companions for traveling this road.
(adapted from crystallotus.com)
